It's a wonderful life!

I'm just starting to understand how much I've come to depend on others. It's funny because I'm actually such an independent person. But I need that feedback. I need to know if I'm doing the right thing. Most of the time I would've already come up with my own opinion but I need to know if it's the correct opinion. It's so sad. But really... isn't that what friends are for? To push you along when you're stuck? I don't know anymore. I don't think I've been a very good friend to anyone in my life. I'm not sure if I know how. I think back and yes, I think I'm right. I'm not a very good friend. I really do care but I don't think it comes across very well. And I'm assuming it's important how the person feels towards me. I've been having It's A Wonderful Life moments more and more lately. Seriously, who would notice if I were gone. I certainly wouldn't (Haha get it? 'Cause I'd be gone? ... *sigh*).