Franklin Graham Festival

It's amazing how such a large group of people can get together and celebrate something extremely important to them. I totally envy that. To just forget everything else, close my eyes, and scream out. But the problem is I don't want to be saved. I don't want to believe in just one thing. Because as soon as I do everything else is false by default. And I don't want that to happen. I love living knowing that the possibilities are endless.

But I can understand the desire for firm knowledge. No doubt. I would love to live without that nagging doubt always in the back of my mind.

You can't go on forever like this. You need to settle. You need to know. Your nature doesn't allow for you to not know the definite answer in anything. Just. Give. In.

Not that people who believe in God aren't doubtful. In fact I would question anyone who never doubts their God and that God's existence. To love someone who is supposed to be all mighty, I think that would warrant some doubt.

I feel this pull on all sides. But I've see the harm that has been inflicted in the name of God or Buddha or so many others. So many deluded people thinking one thing but unable to express it in other form than violence and prejudice.

I see so many confused beings just wanting the answer to their question. I don't want to put all my love in one idea just to be hurt. I can't deal with that kind of rejection.